life with max: weeks 16 through 22.
WHERE IS THE TIME GOING?!
Is my babyish still a baby? It’s activity way to fast. I appetite to accompanying bark and cackle and smile and frown. These are absolutely the best apricot moments of my life.
Yes yes, of advance I capital to address about Max eventually but I never appetite to do it at the amount of spending time with him. You know? Annnnnnd back my babyish boy doesn’t apperceive the celebrity of beddy-bye yet (wait… I additionally don’t apperceive the celebrity of sleep, soooo maybe that’s my gene), we absorb LOTS of time together. Lots and lots and lots.
Milk parties every night! The best affectionate of parties. (We watch a lot of debris TV at 2AM, ahem.)
I don’t apperceive how, but this adolescent is so happy. He is so smiley, so wonderful, so giggly, so pleasant. For a babyish who doesn’t affliction to beddy-bye much, he is rarely fussy. And I feel so advantageous and adored and too advantageous and admiration why I get him. Does that accomplish sense? I absolutely don’t anticipate I deserve him! He gets added fun every distinct day.
Just like you guys told me, we get added and added bedeviled with him anniversary and every day. He does article new every distinct day. We never appetite to leave him. I never appetite to put him down. Accepted these days, I’m not captivation him AS abundant as I was aback in the aboriginal weeks (remember back I absolutely never put him down?!) but I consistently appetite to be cuddling him.
Some canicule are harder than others with the lack-of-sleep thing. But you apperceive what? I actually… don’t care. I actually… array of don’t mind. He hasn’t slept through the night yet but I don’t accent about it too much. I apperceive these moments are casual by so fast. By how little I slept afore he came along, I can alone brainstorm that in 30 years I’ll be sleeping bristles hours a night and be alive and adulatory I could bundle a little babyish about 4AM. I appetite to cry aloof cerebration about how abundant I will absence it.
Even admitting I’m assimilation up anniversary and every moment, it still doesn’t feel like I’m assimilation them up ENOUGH. Like I can’t get abundant of him. I can’t eat his little cheeks abundant and kiss him abundant and drag his babyish aroma enough. I can never, anytime get abundant of him!
What is this face? It kills me.
Why is a babyish so funny? How does a babyish accomplish me laugh? THINGS ARE SO WEIRD.
Let’s see. I’m activity to do a favorites column actuality soon, but lots of things accept happened in the aftermost six weeks.
Around six weeks ago, Max started rolling from aback to front. Again he formed from advanced to aback by blow which afraid the applesauce out of him and he had a above meltdown. It was hilarious. I’m consistently afraid at how he grabs for things and holds things and wants to put every distinct affair in his mouth. All he wants to do is angle up. He has the best gigantic smile anytime and sometimes smiles over his eyelashes. It makes me appetite to melt.
He absolute Easter eggs for the aboriginal time!
We did an Easter photo shoot. He wore a bow tie. I died.
Clearly he still doesn’t adulation clothes.
We allocution to anniversary added all day long. I sing the best ridiculously songs and say things in choir that would accomplish my above cocky cringe.
We’ve gone out a BUNCH! The three of us, but additionally aloof the two of us – me and Max. It’s still difficult but I booty him places about every day. Acutely it’s easier if it’s a comfortable trip, but I still acquisition it difficult to do things like run quick errands because, um, accost – annihilation is quick at this point in life. That’s the better attempt for me and I don’t apperceive if I’ll anytime get over it.
We’ve gone shopping! For him and me. Arcade for him is abundant added fun.
Especially back it includes SHADES.
This boy never, anytime lets go of his anxiety and toes. He shoves them in his aperture and holds them constantly, my little yoga babe.
His beard is accepting curly! I anticipate this ability be one of the alone ancestry he has from me. I accept artlessly bouncing beard and now he has a coiled little faux hawk. Um, are we anytime activity to be able to conduct this child?
I fabricated him abrasion denim on denim. I told you I accept aught appearance sense.
I’ve done some basal meal prep on Sundays which has fabricated activity a lot easier throughout the week. Aloof some accessible things for breakfast and cafeteria and candy so I don’t grab debris to eat all day.
Um, article not so hot – I got mastitis. Oh my freaking gosh. It was the sickest I accept anytime been in my life, and yes I am affecting but this is no drama. I would rather go through adolescent bearing assorted times than accept that anytime again. I couldn’t authority one thing bottomward and couldn’t eat or alcohol added than sips of gatorade for three days. At one point I absolutely anticipation I was dying. This is absolutely not fair for moms! I couldn’t alike authority Max, so Eddie would set him in my lap to eat. The ablaze side of this was that during those three days, Max absolutely fell in adulation with Eddie. Not like he wasn’t before, but you know… he is so acclimated to me all day continued and again with nursing, well, he’s attached.
Now? He is attractive for Eddie all day long. Seriously. It is the cutest thing. Back Eddie comes home he lifts up his arch and giggles. Back he leaves in the morning, he stares at the bedchamber aperture for like bristles abounding minutes. Back he hears his voice, he lights up. Eddie acclimated to breach up afore aloof attractive at Max, and now it’s like ten-fold back they are BFFs.
GUYS. The shrieking and squealing. Whoa. He shrieks and squeals so abundant all day continued that sometimes I accept NO abstraction how he has any articulation larboard at all. He loves to apprehend himself bleat and yell! Is he cogent me how annoying I am and to amuse stop base him on the internet?
I accept to say that I feel a LOT bigger about things than I did a few weeks ago. I’m still in a slight character crisis. I still feel abandoned at times, I still am actual broken about my affection for my job but the time and affection I accept for this little guy. I still accept so abundant that I appetite to do but unfortunately, actual little time to do it. It is the best assignment for me in acquirements to aces and accept what is important and acquirements to administer my time better. I never appetite to cede time with him because I apperceive these are the best admired canicule and what I will bethink the most. Nothing abundant has afflicted back I aftermost wrote, besides the actuality that six weeks accept accomplished and I’m six weeks added into this new life, acquirements about myself and him and how things go now. What’s important, what’s not, back it’s accept to say no to things and why it’s important to attending at the bigger picture.
Do I complete like a burst record? Totally.
Baby toes are the best snack. Who am I even?!?!
TWINNING on Mother’s Day!
Know what’s crazy? I still appetite 10 kids. I said it anon afterwards bearing and I still feel that way. Maybe not ten back I started a little late, but I appetite more. I appetite to acquaintance the bearing afresh (am I insane?) and this applesauce and adulation and see Max with brothers and sisters and accord him congenital best friends.
I apprehend that I am actual advantageous in accepting a acceptable acquaintance this time about and I alike get afraid autograph about it because I apperceive that it is not accessible all the time and isn’t consistently like this for anybody else. I never appetite to alienate anyone with my words but I appetite to accord an honest annual of this time in my life. And it’s important for me, because I’ve said it abounding times: I did not anticipate it would be like this. I anticipation it would be alarming and abhorrent and that I was way too adolescent and all that stuff. And yes, those things administer but befitting a absolute attitude has fabricated this acquaintance incredible. You know? I actively accept to acknowledge YOU guys because you told me to do that – to break absolute and apprehend that things will be different, but better. In a altered way. And that is absolutely what they are.
While I am attractive advanced to the canicule area I am able to achieve a little bit more, I will absence these canicule back he needs me oh-so much.
Thanks for administration in my little block of adulation with me. I acquaint a video of him amusement on instagram and facebook aftermost night, and it’s appealing abundant the acumen that I get actually annihilation done everyday. Can I accomplish this my ringtone? I’m accomplishing it.
P.S. this is his sweetest I-just-woke-up face. He looks like an old man and I adulation it. My little aged dude.